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Amy's Portal of Pleasure: Drawing

One of my favorite portals of pleasure is drawing. What I love about the process is the deep witnessing of another creature (in this case, a flower–can you name the kind?). In order for me to draw it, I first have to really see it.

  • How do the blossoms change as they move from open to closed to barely buds?
  • What is that pattern on the leaves (it really is this crazy)?
  • Are the leaves alternating or opposing?
  • How to I create something on paper that captures what exists in three dimensions?
  • What lines will capture the essence?
  • So many details that I only really notice when I’m trying to filter it through my eyes, my brain, and then back out through my fingers and pen. I become an alert, witnessing conduit. It awakens a capacity for ‘knowing’ that serves me in so many other places in my life.

This type of witnessing with curiosity is deeply pleasurable for me. It serves me when I bring that same attention to another’s body, or my own.
xo,
Amy

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Pleasure Lab Podcast – Episode 19

Show Notes:

Length: 31:58

  • Amy and Zed talk about Pride month and claiming your own erotic pride (0:40)
  • no whimsey section or TT@H, as a little experiment
  • let us know if you miss them!

Music: Grateful to Little Dog Big Ears for their Creative Commons licensed music She Sees Mice (intro and outro) and New Ages I (try this at home section). Also to Orquesta Arrecife for their snippet LA MORDAZA (whimsey section).
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Diaphragmatic Breathing

Diaphragmatic breathing is a foundational breath practice to support resilience and potency. Our theme this month is potency and basic to potency is the breath-it’s nourishment, focalizes attention, creates resilience and is a passage into various states of consciousness. Diaphragmatic Breathing is among one of the essential breath practices of tantra.
How to do this breath:
-Notice your posture.
Sit, stand or lay down so that your spine is stacked on itself.
-Place your hands on the side on your torso, touching the lower ribs.
-Breath deeply, focusing on the place where your hands are touching your ribs.
-Notice the pace of your breath, and if you are holding it at the end of inhalation or exhalation. Iron out your breath, so that it is a cycle without pause.
-Expand your breath, following your diaphragm
to all points of contact it makes with your front, side and back ribs.
*You are now breathing with diaphragmatic fullness!
This breath practice can be used for body awareness, with a meditation practice and to shift anxiety. Play with it and see how it shifts the way you understand your breath.
Love,
Alex

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Potency at Portals

bodhicollage
I want to riff on our theme of “potency” for this month, and to write to you about golden showers and the May pole, about focusing on a single point, about the geometric manifestation of an energy—but honestly most of what I’ve been working on with Body Trust lately is getting the Portals of Pleasure registration up and ready for YOU all to come and enter the first portal!
This annual deep temple retreat holds so much potency for me. This will be our 8th summer retreat together, the four of us, and our third that we’ve produced on our own. Retreating like this in the summer with a circle of women & genderqueer folks has become an axis around which my year spins, a pole to hang my ribbons on. I go deep and weep and open up in ways that I almost never expect, and sometimes I soar with the ecstasy of release or power or connection.
I love how we’ve started weaving more art in to our retreats. Art has been such an incredibly potent portal for me—and is for so many, I think—that it makes sense that we started including more of it, as a way to access our connection to spirit, to creation, to divinity. I channel when I write in a way that I don’t do any other place in my life (well, except maybe having sex).
We’ll be back at the Bodhi Manda Zen Center this year, and I can’t wait to dip down into those hot spring pools and get rejuvenated. I remember the last year I was there, in 2012, lying on my bed after soaking the first night I was there, marveling at Hosen’s joyousness and good attitude, and thinking, “You know, if I soaked in these pools every day, I would be pretty blissful, too.”
Hope you will come join us this summer!
xo Zed

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Pleasure Lab Podcast – Episode 18

Show Notes:

Length: 33:14

  • Amy and Zed talk May, potency, and BDSM (0:40)
  • Robert Frost poem “The Road Not Taken” (28:48)
  • TT@H: merry-go-round sensory stretch (26:07)

Music: Grateful to Little Dog Big Ears for their Creative Commons licensed music She Sees Mice (intro and outro) and New Ages I (try this at home section). Also to Orquesta Arrecife for their snippet LA MORDAZA (whimsey section).
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What kind of superhero are you?

May’s theme is all about potency. What power is rotating at about your core? What kind of vortex are you creating by your very being? As kids, we might have imagined ourselves to be Spiderman, WonderWoman, or a pirate witch who transgressed cultural norms. Somewhere inside, though, we knew we held deeper capacities than our mundane world acknowledged. We knew we had superpowers.
So what is your superhero name? What is your superpower? Your tool, sword, or cape? How do your superpowers show up in your life, especially in the erotic realm?
Perhaps your sensible adult has grown a bit rusty at this whole superhero name thing. Never fear! Just use this chart as a starting point to determine your superhero name. Once you have your mighty moniker then what do you think your super power might be? What is it’s symbol? And, unlike Clark Kent oblivious to the tiny untucked corner of his cape peeking out of those 1950s trousers, how can you let your superpowers be known this month?
— Amy
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Detox

detox smallIt is that time of year for me, springtime is cleanse time. Each spring for many years I do a ritual cleanse. This year also included a time off grid at a natural hot springs. This gave me an opportunity to consciously shift my intake of food, internet, usual activities and then support release. I now feel the flexibility and resourcefulness of my whole body.
And every spring I read the detox chapter, Chapter 8, of Radical Healing by Rudolph Ballentine, MD. This chapter assists in identifying what kind of detox, for what purpose and how to detox. I also follow the guidance of my naturopathic physician, where she suggested a particular type of cleanse that fits my body and health needs.
Here is a simple approach to detox taken from Radical Healing, pg. 318:
For maintenance of…

  • Colon: Exercise, High-fiber diet, water
  • Urinary Tract: Water, Diet low in fat, salt, protein
  • Skin: Water, aerobic
  • Lungs: Complete Breath

Ahhh, getting clear and cleaner. Why don’t you join me this year?
—Alex

How about you? What holes are calling? What feels holy? How are you becoming whole?

 

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Two of the most essential embodiment skills

I have two major goals for Body Trust entry-level worklocks on fenceshops—which are the same two things we expect people to be able to do in the inter
mediate or advanced workshops: 1. to communicate about what they want their experience to be like, and 2. to be able to stop or change an experience that they don’t like.
Writing those two things out, they seem so simple to me … and yet for my own exploration of desire and pleasure in my body, I know it has taken me years to even reach a moderate level of competence in those skills.
I remember feeling dread when Alex would say that we were going to play the Three Minute Game, knowing that I could freeze up when it came to what I wanted to do for my pleasure. It took more time and practice to get a little rolodex of things I could generally always ask for and enjoy (for example: foot massage, solid pressure on my back and shoulder
s, pounding on my butt, wrist and hand massage, energy exchange at a chakra, castor oil on some scar tissue), and to be able to flip through it and chose one on command.
Even though it takes some time to develop, in hands-on clothes-off whole body work in groups, the ability to identify and vocalize what one wants, and the ability to identify when something is not going so well, are momentous and essential.
As we continue to build and grow the curriculum for the Dedicated To Your Body workshops, I am keeping these two things in mind, and we are breaking down those skills into smaller parts and increasing the exercises to strengthen those parts. I’m sure th
ere are many more things that our entry-level workshops explore, but right now, these two feel like The Big Two, the things I’m particularly interested in encouraging us as a community to play with and strengthen. They feel so essential to me in order to go into the more intense work of sensation play, restriction, increasing the body’s capacity, and moving energy.
So, that’s what I’ve been pondering lately. If you feel like sharing it with me & the other Body Trust folks, I’d be curious to know: How did you develop your capacity to ask for what you want, and change things you didn’t want? How did erotic embodiment work in community help support your agency around this? What exercises helped this click for you?
—Zed

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Pleasure Lab Podcast – Episode 17

Show Notes:

Length: 40:25

  • Zed and Amy talk about holes, puberty, and springtime (00:40)
  • April Fool’s Outtakes (25:29)
  • TT@H: planting seedlings with intention (22:02)

The Try This @ Home experiment came from the book E-Squared by Pam Grout.
Music: Grateful to Little Dog Big Ears for their Creative Commons licensed music She Sees Mice (intro and outro) and New Ages I (try this at home section). Also to Orquesta Arrecife for their snippet LA MORDAZA (whimsey section).
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April's theme is Holes, Holy, Whole.

hole flowerIt is the time of planting, of digging caverns in the soil to plant a seedling.
It is the time of Easter, Passover, and the Hindu New Year.
It is the time when the impulses and intentions of March begin to find themselves taking form and following their telos towards wholeness.
And April is a great month to feel into those impulses in the body.

  • What holes in your body demand your attention?
  • What is Holy to you right now, sacred and essential?
  • Where in your life are things coming into form?

It can be a kind of unruly mess, this springing into being that is April springtime, that is the April showers that bring May flowers. What better than a little poetry to bring order to the chaos.
—Amy


Budding Scholars

BY APRIL HALPRIN WAYLAND
Welcome, Flowers.
Write your name on a name tag.
Find a seat.
Raise your leaf if you’ve taken a class here before.
Let’s go around the room.
Call out your colors.
I see someone’s petal has fallen—
please pick it up and put it in your desk
where it belongs.
Sprinklers at recess,
fertilizer for lunch,
and you may snack on the sun throughout the day.
Excuse me . . .
what’s that in your mouth?
A bee?
Did you
bring enough
for everyone?

April Halprin Wayland, “Budding Scholars” from Sharing the Seasons: A Book of Poems. Copyright © 2010 by April Halprin Wayland. Reprinted by permission of April Halprin Wayland.

How about you? What holes are calling? What feels holy? How are you becoming whole?